What the hell.

I have never been so happy in my life. I didn't realize how down I was until I let her go. I thought life would end without her. I thought she was my whole life, all of my happiness. But I was wrong. So wrong, she was holding me back! She had me on a leash of unlimited sadness. I never thought depression would hit me in the face. But it came at me so hard that I went insane. 

She was a roadblock in my pursuit of happiness. A locked door in my mind. Without even knowing it she tied me down and locked me in a closet. I was restricted on who I could talk to, how creative I can be. But now that I cut her off, my mind is like a endless stream of creativity. I found a new girl. 

She has completely changed my life for the best. She let's me be me, let's me do what I want. I feel true happiness now. And I wish for everyone to have this same feeling that I have. So those of you that think life cannot be livable without that person. You're wrong! Give it a shot. Yeah it sucks. But buck up and get out of your bed out of your whole of dispair and live! Find someone that let's you live your life! Wake up! Who gives a shit what people will think. Be yourself.

Swimming.

Life is all about time,

With out time, there is no life.

We wouldn't be able to remember

I want to remember.

I wish that I go back and remember everything I've ever done

That way I can't basque in all of my glory, my success, my accomplishments.

But..

I know that I would be so stuck in my pit of dispair, disappointment, losses

My life seems that it's a downhill slope.

The equation is (1 good thing= 7 failures)

Failure. I know that my life has been just so much disappointment.

That look on your mothers face when you let her down.

The way your father hits you for disobeying

And you go to your room and say the words.

"I hate them"

Those words that you would never dare say to their faces 

And you go rebel against them just to piss them off.

Until that day.

You are sitting in school,

Your brother calls you and says they're gone.

While you were in your rebellion,

They went to look for you.

As you were in the woods lighting up,

Your parents nearly get blown up..

That semi driver fell asleep for just a moment and take your parents out just like that.

.......

You thought you were cool.

But now your parents lie in a pool of blood

You ask yourself.

...Was it worth it?

Devastated chair.

I will be back....